ex nihilo nihil fit

This is my active dying process

letting myself go

as I discover me

to be more than what I was

and the more I become
the more to give away

and thus exhaust my potential

I serve my time

until it is interrupted
by what I could not overcome

Scour to the bottom

(and through that flimsy concept)

down to the origin of the world

to find my deeper nature

trace the purpose
and follow it back

the way it transformed

from the initial will to be

to when it becomes

the will to die

I expect ecstatic joy

to counter the pain of being born

and complete the circle

to re-create the perfect harmony

that my life ruptured

from the monstrous origo

I have become

to fall in love with nothing

after everything else is gone for me

and absolute freedom is renewed.