Monday 28 October 2013

Symbolic Account

Symbolic Account
(part 1)

Mise en abyme
Post mortem in ownership
The ship is jointly ours
Like the magic that fuels
its processes
the systemic dynamo
the dreams to animate
this

Co-opted at existence
Primordial territories
marked on the body
of the world
with age-old urine
physical messages
in the sand and ants
some wavering scents
in on-going wind-shift
of air belonging
to nowhere
and every place
equally
its place
Chase this to metabiosis, to make it real
let it be proven by the ways of the world
formula and function –
the current's artistry
and that it is indeed folly
what sad nuggets out of this palimpsest I have seen carved
with incisive and extracting power-tools
and play their tricks on me no more
I says in the abyss
and ocean
all fear and love
all that may wither and die
like my heart with the world
That mirrors its solipsism on you
as you were it and it were you too and true
you being all but none
and this map boils down
to its finality,
factual letters on the page
that keep such pace in my ecstasy
and bone-hammer noise of my ears
Oh Lord,
H.C. Anna's wind
and 'til or more thelomere
in our eternal blood
that changes from light
to matter – this pace
rhythm stroke of events
in myriads and myriads
multiplied with all numbers
this blast per minute rate
heartbeat of phenomena
Thee, Oh World cannot be governed
by less then thou art
and thou art all
and so very old

your minds in a hive, aspiring
to see who is they
and not to see us
even on the opposite end of their parallel

but the will to decide
against them might still
be what unites us
into this subject
not matrimony to a persona
like their despicable rant
about the nation's soul
sincerely played at all dollhouses,
molestation and torture

They
armed the force
to more suffering
chanting their excuse
words by name
and thus free and clear
of all meaning

to them applicable
onset point of reference
in beyond, not deep space
just out of the picture and immaculate

But we don't allow that
No, we nail them down
(de nagler englene til jorden
med sjel og krop)
to this physicality
cut the wings of their fiction

and see them as inanimate objects
to get our revenge
against our enemy
in function

Precisely them in flesh and hands
at toil in unloving
and careless plunder

FEAR
I ask your havoc
to descend on them
and seal them with
their exhale poison
and cancer seeds
that undermine our shared body

Their heartless worm in our marrow
compared to my maggot blood
in your nose I hope to be
distinguished as accordingly
and equally foul

it's just that my vermin trail spelled
their name for your ears
ugly scab society
and limit you as separate from them
by implication

to have a chance in insisting
that they step down
from their honor
and see the same blood
on their hands

the blood we chose to spill

our blood in them

their blood on my map

as a symbolic statement










(part 2)

Refusal manifesting
as antagonism
in play

yet we must evade
that grim-robe role
their death hath to
us assigned

we be butchers
in deed
but not answer to their hog-call:
KILLER!

For they hath summoned us
in evil alignment
to see satan at least
replacing missed god
point of reference
un-pinpointable absolute


they wish to gain
by staking me up as enemy

I'll be it
Albion the deceitful
take all the names
and wage imperial war
in their Algeria
all for Fraternité, Egalité et Liberté

And hand my rebellion
to them
so that they can be sanct and just
Robespierre the cleanly

Wash hands red and sore
until you see the same
blood
in hands
on hands

pumping in the veins
of those primate appendixes
that in vain toil
to dam and circumvent
the rushing currents
that like tidal floods flow

when tribes and nations
are on the boil
shift and trade places
buy and sell human meaning
with monetary blood.

But what if this joint
shift urge –
could be passed on
for free?

All it takes is to give without demanding in return?

And do let me proclaim
you are as free of me
as of all others

we will remain beyond what you are
so that you may remain intact
for what you can take the confinement

Let the stars scar and sear me
with their ever unloving light
let you touch me
with wordless imageless sex
hands with no emotion
but sensory connection

Let you be inhuman
in communion

Let you be free
without hesitation
and thenceforth
shall there be

no fiction between us.

Sunday 27 October 2013

Vigilance

Vigilance

There are things
I have become aware of
I'd rather be without

To this end the will
reviews the self
an instrument

And through the recognition
of this pattern
the self now perceives its own history

a history of instrumentalization
as a slave of ideas and systems

that rigged the world
for destruction

The entirety of the organism buckles
at such realizations

and retreats all the way
to animality

to evade the responsibility
freedom would mean

again and again
until terminus
cancels the potential

Such is my nausea
as the night,
     that remains
     when another day goes out,
is revealed.


As if there was no eyes to see the darkness.

Tuesday 8 October 2013

No Ambition

I have no ambition
or I have misunderstood what it is

It may also be
that my inability to want
what I want

has cancelled ambition for me

or I should want more
and hold my course
until my want
is replaced by possession

And that I should never be satisfied,
Rather driven

But all I can muster
is hunger
and having eaten
I'd rather sleep

And sleep only as long as I can dream

And how much less are my dreams
when I openly state that they are all fictitious

And ultimately arbitrary
like fantasy

But still more real to me than ambition
And hold priority over physical existence

Without dreams
I'd rather not be
and that is my will

Animal testament
of majesty
where ever I lay my head

and in congress with my vaccillant desires
I compromise all certainty
and risk what motivation I have left

it is a good thing that I still have my hunger
until I eat
and then I know I will feel sleepy

Rising with the sun
because the sun is
and I have come to be
and succumb to darkness
when night finally falls
for the night will fall
after the last sunset

and as light we will exit
leaving unbeing

to nothingness.