No Ambition

I have no ambition

or I have misunderstood what it is

It may also be

that my inability to want

what I want

has cancelled ambition for me

or I should want more

and hold my course

until my want

is replaced by possession

And that I should never be satisfied,

Rather driven

But all I can muster

is hunger

and having eaten

I'd rather sleep

And sleep only as long as I can dream

And how much less are my dreams

when I openly state that they are all fictitious

And ultimately arbitrary

like fantasy

But still more real to me than ambition

And hold priority over physical existence

Without dreams

I'd rather not be

and that is my will

Animal testament

of majesty

where ever I lay my head

and in congress with my vaccillant desires

I compromise all certainty

and risk what motivation I have left

it is a good thing that I still have my hunger

until I eat

and then I know I will feel sleepy

Rising with the sun

because the sun is

and I have come to be

and succumb to darkness

when night finally falls

for the night will fall

after the last sunset

and as light we will exit

leaving unbeing

to nothingness.